Was It Worth It In The End?

The time you both had, the memories you both made together, the smiles you both shared, and the way you both cared...it's all gone now, then why are you still hung up on them? Why are you still waiting? Actually, what are you waiting for? And the biggest question is..

Do you still love them?

  In front of your friends, you act like you have moved on and keep on lying...when you know that you're just pretending that it doesn't affect you anymore.You have to start believing that you weren't meant for each other but you had that amazing bonding and chemistry between you both...that just won't ever go away. It was all picture perfect when suddenly one day something..a little mistake or a little misunderstanding ruined it all, and you feel like why..just why couldn't you both last forever? Why did it have to end? All the memories of you both still flashes across your mind every now and then. You know you'll never forget those days..your days.. You will never forget the moment when you first saw them, the moment which changed everything! You shouldn't even forget those times. Because they were the good times. But, that doesn't mean you have to keep clinging to it. You have to stop them from affecting your life now, because you have stopped affecting theirs. If they have thrown you from their life then even you have to do the same, so as to prevent yourself from being broken. Because heart is like a glass, once broken, then never the same as before.

  This phase comes in everyone's life.When that so very important person leaves. Everyone has to go at some point, But those who plan on staying are your's and others....They never were. If it has already happened to you then I'm sure they crossed your mind while reading this. They don't deserve to be so special in your life anymore. So just let go off them, relieve your soul from all the burden and set it free!

  If being apart was that person's choice then don't chase them. You have had enough of them now. Just let them go, if they really care, they would bother to return someday, If they don't then forget it and its high time to realize that you need to move on. There's no use holding onto those who don't put effort as much as you to save the relationship. Stop punishing yourself for the things which you haven't done!

  People fall in love very easily, but falling out of love very easily..? Its a totally different story. The feelings might fade to a certain extent, but they never really dissappear! Even after things end, you still feel your heartbeat increase when you see them...These are the signs of being stuck in the past. Its time that you realize that past is past...its over, accept it or else, it will ruin your future too. 

  Torturing yourself with their thoughts, Being upset, Feeling lonely in a crowd, continuing to care about them when you know that they don't even think about you anymore, still remembering old days and regretting just everything, feeling guilty for the mistakes you never committed in the first place....W-H-Y?  Is it worth it?

   MOVE ON. I know you've tried but you can't. Ofcourse it's not that easy, leaving things behind and starting afresh. But, if they can, then why can't you? Too much of love and attachment also hurts. Just erase those texts which you keep re-reading, because the person who sent them isn't the same person anymore. They have changed and now it's your turn..If you are still holding on then they don't realize what they have lost in their life. You did your best. Now it's time for you to be happy, live for yourself and do whats the best only for you. Your heart deserves better..Once more to live. Once more to care, Once more to love...

     It has just been always from your side. Only you still held on the feelings whereas they distant themselves from you. You only tried to make it all better and you failed.... You have to realize that Sometimes, You have to be your own hero and let go. Before resuming to holding on..just ask yourself once, WAS IT WORTH IT IN THE END?

                                                                                                  -Shivani Manek.